Here we go with another entry in my digital journal. Last week wasn’t an easy week, had to figure out what I wanted to do in the future, either go full corporate or achieve financial freedom just like I always wanted to.
After spending a week trying to solve this very complex problem, I have chosen financial freedom. If it fails, worst case I can go back to corporate and still make more than enough money to get by and more. But somehow, not many people will understand this but money shouldn’t be an objective, it is merely the result of the work you have put in. When I talk about my algorithms, people always assume I did it for the money when in fact, it was just me trying to prove that a set of instructions or algorithm can beat the human mind. A concept which isn’t obvious for most.
This week however, I was faced with another challenge in life, how do I get there? How do I make the most of my time in order to reach the quality of life only a few can dream of? In order to make it happen, I really think changing habits is probably the number one thing a person should do. I have met plenty of people from different walks of life but only one person made me re-think about my actions, my health and future. I don’t know if it’s a sign of maturity or wisdom, but my perception of life changed.
I used to have bad habits which I carried on for many years since it was helping me get through so many obstacles and eventually felt like it was a mundane action with no consequences whatsoever. Sometimes forgetting about the reality you are faced with is somehow necessary, take your mind off, cool off and just survive for another day was the motto for so long. After so many years, I am proud to say I am now clean. Deep inside I always knew this day would come but I just needed a reason to fully commit and put all those bad habits aside.
It’s kinda weird to say, my family wished I had quit so long ago but it never hits you as hard as when you actually re-evaluate your life and goals and realize, if I want to be with a person who I care a lot, wouldn’t it make sense that I start taking care of myself too? We all want to be with someone who will push you to new levels, further in life and somehow expect them to be “perfect” depending on your values and priorities. But, if you look yourself in the mirror, are you the best you can be? How can you expect so much from another when you yourself aren’t even willing to make some changes in your own life?
With this in mind, I have now quit smoking. I thought it would be a bit harder than what I experienced but I guess a huge part of it was that I just needed the right reason or in my case, the right person to make me realize it was time to start a new chapter. It has now been a full 4-weeks clean and surprisingly I have no “need” or sudden “craving” for it. Of course I had to go through withdrawals, mostly headaches and sudden “heat waves” or randomly sweating. Slight mood changes once in a while, I guess kinda like irritability, peaked at 2nd week but overall, pretty smooth experience. Headaches however, were very frequent throughout the weeks, just random times during the day out of nowhere even if you had all 3 meals and enough water, vitamins and sugar. Eventually, all these withdrawals symptoms were gone, took about 3-4 weeks to be back to “normal”.
Now that I have quit smoking, I am now focusing on healthier nutrition and try to put some effort into losing weight and getting back in shape. All these years of junk food and bad diet eventually got me fat. There is no other way to put it. Eat junk food, get fat. No exercise and spending all day in front of a computer, you will get fat. The worst part is that all the fat is concentrated in my belly area, which is also the most difficult area to lose/burn. But I think if I genuinely do a solid push, I won’t have to worry about it anymore. I suppose time will tell…
You may wonder, how does any of this is related to trading? Well it’s simple, the happier you are in your body and mind, the clearer your thoughts are. If your thoughts are no longer cloudy or distracted from useless or meaningless things, that means you will probably spend more time working towards your goals and eventually make it happen. Be happy with what you have become, all the obstacles you’ve been through and you are bound to succeed no matter which path you choose.
If you are lucky like me, maybe you will meet someone special in your life who without even asking will simply wake you up, help you see things from another perspective and that my friend, is a life changer. Just remember, it’s a team effort, teamwork.
Always give, the more you give the more you will receive, you just never know when.
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